the_chappy: (Lilies)
the_chappy ([personal profile] the_chappy) wrote2006-08-24 03:26 am

OOM: The Wake

There were some things he never wanted to do and some things he never imagined himself doing.

Like preparing the body of a friend for a wake.

Elaine had decided that Tony's corpse needed to be prepared, his wounds dressed and that tarp removed. It might be more difficult to explain the shroud he was wrapped in now, the gauzy white cloth that covered his body, with just one thin layer over his face like a veil. This shroud raise more questions than just leaving him in the tarp, a fact that bothered Ryan, but that option didn't seem ... decent. It was distasteful on a visceral level, offending something that went beyond logic.

Visit the sick. Harbor the harborless. Ransom the captive. Bury the dead.

That didn't make this much easier though. It was out of respect, duty and even pride that he was here. He couldn't leave Elaine to do this alone, that was never an option. Still, it was hard to look at the ashen skin and the wounds and not be horrified, not wonder about what his own body had looked like. One bullet wound but the entry point was different and Ryan was grateful for that. The neat, small entry wound in Tony's forehead was easy to cover with bandages, still leaving his face visible. Intact. Lying over the body, on his chest, was a small bouquet of white lilies.

The only problem after the wake would be the burial. Something would have to be done soon. He knew the others were waiting to see if Michelle would arrive here or what the chatter on the mission...

But it couldn't wait any longer. They'd have to take care of the body and he had to be done soon. It didn't matter what condition the body was in, it just wasn't right to wait. It seemed disrespectful somehow. Not to mention the unspoken hope that he knew was shared by the others that if Tony was buried maybe he could come back to Milliways. It was insane and sounded almost like Milliways' own version of superstition but it also made a strange sort of sense. Tony would come back here if he could so what else could be keeping him but this?

The still sparsely decorated room has more furniture in it now. Along with the bed that the body lay on - a single, covered with a white sheet and pushed horizontal against the wall opposite the door - there were also a few folding chairs in case anyone needed to sit during the blessing.

Across the hall, in Room 515, there was none of the usual bedroom furniture, just chairs, tables and two couches. On one table there was food, plates and napkins. On the other table (and in the two coolers underneath) there are soft drinks, coffee, tea and a wide variety of liquors.

Ryan walks over to the doorway where Elaine is standing and waits for people to come by.

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] and-far-away.livejournal.com 2006-08-27 07:42 pm (UTC)(link)
"What would you've done, Jack?" Sharpe asks, gentle but implacable. "Whatever it is, I'd lay good money he wouldn't've wanted you to."

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] action-antihero.livejournal.com 2006-08-27 09:00 pm (UTC)(link)
"No, probably not." Tony had made the same mistake before, after all, and had gone to prison for it. "Kind of hard to remember that when..."

When I look at Tony. When I think about Michelle.

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] and-far-away.livejournal.com 2006-08-27 09:01 pm (UTC)(link)
"But that's when it's the most important to remember it."

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] action-antihero.livejournal.com 2006-08-27 09:53 pm (UTC)(link)
"And when it doesn't seem to matter as much."

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] and-far-away.livejournal.com 2006-08-27 09:54 pm (UTC)(link)
"Jack. Listen to me. When you start feeling like it's your fault, that's exactly when you need t'remember what he would've wanted."

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] action-antihero.livejournal.com 2006-08-27 10:14 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yeah, I do," Jack snaps, suddenly irritated. "I remember Tony wanted to get teh hell out of this business because he wanted to be with Michelle and they couldn't risk their lives like that anymore. I remember that he wanted kids and to see them grow up. He wanted a life like anyone else. That's what Tony wanted."

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] and-far-away.livejournal.com 2006-08-27 10:15 pm (UTC)(link)
"And what he wanted more, as far as I can tell, was to have you out of there alive and safe. And he did that."

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] action-antihero.livejournal.com 2006-08-28 03:09 pm (UTC)(link)
"Well maybe he shoudn't have," Jack snaps, standing from his chair; he's going to need a drink if he stays here much longer. "Maybe he should have had his priorities straight."

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] and-far-away.livejournal.com 2006-08-28 03:10 pm (UTC)(link)
"And maybe he had his priorities completely straight, for him." He stands up alongside Jack. "Wouldn't you have done the same, if it was the other way 'round?"

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] action-antihero.livejournal.com 2006-08-28 04:11 pm (UTC)(link)
"Yeah," he says, softly, pouring himself a drink. If their places had been reversed, he wouldn't have even thought about it. "I'd have fewer reasons to stay back, though."

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] and-far-away.livejournal.com 2006-08-28 04:12 pm (UTC)(link)
"When it comes to the crunch", Sharpe says quietly, "you're never thinking about the reasons to stay behind."

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] action-antihero.livejournal.com 2006-08-28 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Jack takes a sip of his drink, walking back toward the window. "No. But...maybe he should have."

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] and-far-away.livejournal.com 2006-08-28 10:05 pm (UTC)(link)
"Can't second-guess him, Jack. You wouldn't have, I wouldn't have, he didn't."

Re: Room 515

[identity profile] action-antihero.livejournal.com 2006-08-29 12:38 am (UTC)(link)
"Yeah," he says, softly, unsure what else to say. Knowing it with his head is one thing, knowing it with his heart is another.